He's too young for words of wisdom

So it's been one week of uni already and it starts again tomorrow



I feel life is taking a weird spin on things and making everything move slow so you feel like next week will be forever yet fast enough so that you never seem to have enough time to do anything

Back in more simple days, I used to think I would never grow up, just be a big kid for the rest of my life.
But things change.
Yes, I know what you're thinking, "that's so cliche.... why is he using that? moron..."

But it's hit on me, no, rather its slowly dawned on me, that what's in the past, stays in the past.
And although I tend to dwell and stick to the past like Ray on Trademe, I know doing it does nothing.

You could be looking back so much that you're not looking at your future or even what you have now.

But then again, you can't forget the past.
That's as silly as dwelling on it.



So I'm guessing you're wondering.
Can you win this fateful game?




No.
Don't play the game.

You're going to strikeout, get run out, get tackled, mauled, tripped, fouled, penalised, and lose.
But without losing, how do you know what winning feels like?

High and Mighty

So it's been another weekend and again... I've done no work
I've become very slack, previously when I didn't do work, I would start to panic/stress

None of that now.
I must have lost my mind along the way.

Should I even bother anymore?
Is there an end goal?

As a sign that I wasn't doing anything, I watched the Simpsons movie today.
Really good movie aye, really funny watch.
Highly recommended

On a side note:
I can say I'm quite a modest person, I don't really try to talk myself up or anything, I try to just keep below the radar.
But don't you hate those people who think they're all 'high and mighty' and blatantly think they're better than you, no, everyone.

Is it fair?

This is impossible!

Interesting day today.

Had a girl burst out in tears in my lab today.
She couldn't handle the Compsci 111 lab and said it was impossible to do.
Apparently she gets A+'s for all her other papers from just reading the textbook.
She swore, she ranted, she scared me.

That was a new one, hadn't had that before.

Me and Amy went to eat at this place I hadn't been for ages.
It used to be just a Milk Tea and Karaoke place but now it's a fancy eating place with the Karaoke place still there.

Was pretty nice, really random.
Bumped into some old friends there too. It's funny how time flies and things change, but then... they don't really.

If you use your head, you won't get fat even if you eat sweets

So it's been a busy few days.

Started tutoring again.
6 hour shift. Fun.

Watched the Death Note movies today. It was part of the Film Festival going on that I think I've mentioned before. Two movies back-to-back. Was about 5 hours.
Long. But interesting. Some random, nice twists, but can't beat the anime

What's with all the stuff I've been doing that are in long blocks of time lately?

Kuro / Shiro

So it was another relatively slow day again

Went and watched a movie from the Film Festival called Tekkonkinkreet
Definitely a movie I would need to watch again just coz I didn't really understand what was going on...
It's pretty much a story about 2 orphan kids with flying/jumping powers who try to fight the Yakuza and others for control of the city.
It gets weird at the end though... I won't spoil it, I'm not that kind of person.

Then Amy and I went to eat at Gengy's.
New experience, quite nice though.
They have all you can eat ice cream... nuff said.

I should really do some work instead...

zero, zilch, zip, zippo, zot

I officially have nothing to talk about.
Therefore I am going to post this picture.
Of Pokemon rape.

I guess I did say I needed more pictures...

I spent all day just reading journal articles... don't blame me for this post.

Eye-Beamer

Well it was the start of a very long day really.

Woke up before my alarm again. Seems to be a daily occurrence now.
Did the usual wake up plan.
My mum woke up early too and gave me a 'lucky' red packet.
Drove out to town.

Parked in a carpark and prayed I wouldn't get charged more than the Earlybird rate.

Then started the long, grueling day.
I was lucky I was teamed up with some really friendly candidates or the day would have been a pain to endure through

All were from Auckland Uni, bar one who was from Massey, but all seemed very happily nervous to be there.

4 interviews with managers, a group presentation to the CEO and an impossible set of tests.

That about sums it up really.

And in the end I got a job offer.

I'm buggered

Groundhog Day

Quick entry for today

Uni started for me again today. Fun.
To be honest, it feels the same as before, just different lecturers and topics.
Actually, even the topics are sometimes the same, I'm not sure what the difference is then

I feel for the new students sometimes, I guess we were all in the same situation before.
New to the class, new to the uni, even new to the country.

I was lucky I knew people when I started, I don't really know how it would have all came about if I didn't

Ted got along well, as he usually does, is that any surprise?

Hi Ho, Hi Ho, it's off to work we go...

It's job hunting time.
And what a time it is.

I don't know if I am worried or just... lazy
Lately I've been doing more for my work life than anything to do with uni. Actually, more than in my entire life...
I've had tests and interviews and even a incoming 'Open Day' for a few possible recruits.

I know people who are ultra-prepared, who have everything set, know what to ask, know what to do.
I haven't done a thing.

This can't be a good indication of my work life.

On a completely different note...
I've been wondering if I should make this more of a picturesque blog.
But I don't seem to take any pictures.
I guess that could be a problem...

Suicide Club

At this point in time, I believe I am happy.
Content.

But it's very weird when you have random, possibly sub-conscientiously, suicidal tendencies and thoughts.

I didn't get any sleep last night, another night of just lying in my bed.
Is the lack of sleep at fault?
Should I start hallucinating soon?

It sometimes baffles me when I feel content yet think like this.
But this isn't a first.
Back in darker times these would actually be quite common.
I never really slept well then as well.
I remember standing in front of a moving bus, just staring at the headlights, maybe succumbing to these deep thoughts, only to snap out of it just in time to hear the bus beep past.

I do wonder sometimes if these actually mean something or will I 'grow out of it'.

Don't worry people, I won't do anything silly, just thinking if I splat this out there I may find some inner peace... or something fruity like that.

Catch 22

Yes, two blogs in one day!
What is he thinking??

Just alot on my mind, maybe this is my only release mechanism?

Have you had decisions which no matter which way you look at it, you lose.
Of course you have.

One way, you get hurt.
The other way, another gets hurt.

How do you decide?

Self-preservation or false interest

Consequences?
Do you risk damaging what you have to preserve yourself?
Is your decision bias? Blinded by a sense of duty or fear?

Alot of questions in this post, none of which can be answered, don't feel like this is a test of some sort because it isn't... It's just food, or pain, for thought.


Sigh... I feel insomnia creeping in again...

Let It Slide...

This is interesting, I have started a new blog yet I have nothing to write.
It's kinda funny though, how much trouble these things cause, blogs I mean.

They're meant to be for public viewing, public scrutiny, but there will always be the 'wrong' people who read it

Is this right?
I don't have an answer to this, as I usually don't for most things so I'll let this slide...


I've had a few job tests lately, things that right royally annoy me.

I'm abit... bleh right now so I don't really have much to say, which is weird because I had an entire blog written in my head before, but now... poof, gone.

Until my memory returns...

Rebirth

Like a phoenix, it rises again

For those who wish to read the previous 'phoenix' then click here