Amazing isn't it. How little things in life can be so easily taken for granted.
Like sleep.
Sleep is a natural action. It's the body's resting period. Helps us heal.
I've really been lacking this lately. I don't think I've had more than 5 hours of sleep on any given day this past month.
This is no fault but my own really, I'm not sure how though. It's like a reflex, I just wake up, usually at some obscene hour in the morning.
I know, I know... Some people get 5 hours and they're fine.
It's true and I believe this. I believe I am one of them. But the consistent lack of any rest is starting to get to me.
People take naps.
I can't, I'm just never tired enough during the day to do this even if I did only get, say, an hour sleep the night before.
I also don't sleep till very late either.
I guess coz I'm not actually tired. I went to bed once with the birds chirping around me, sun starting to rise, and then awoke not long after.
Sigh.
The logical response is stress.
Stressed to a point where sleep is just... forgotten.
I think this is too easy of an excuse to take. I can't blame that as I feel I don't have the 'stress package' to back it up.
Maybe it's my lifestyle.
I mean, I do just sit around all day working. Maybe I need to get the energy out of my system, and sleeeeep. Again, I somewhat doubt this is a reason to be taken seriously.
I mean, at home, I usually only ever have one meal, which wouldn't really bolster my energy levels enough to give me an 'overdose' of power. Also, I've never had this before. I used to sleep like a rock even if I had barely moved during the day.
Sorry for the... well, pretty useless post.
I guess what I'm trying to do is to:
- A: Release what I'm thinking
- B: Write something on my damn blog
- C: Make my mind tired enough to sleep
But it's not and I feel as if... I'm teetering on some precipice, about to fall into the abyss of crazy. Sometimes I just dunno what I'm doing.
As if my mind just isn't running the show.
I was just sitting working at home by myself when I just stood up and just yelled. Nothing comprehensible, just garbage. I sat back down and wonder wtf I just did.
The body is moving, but there's no driver.
Hmm... I think I'll need to proofread my dissertation again coz of this...
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I quote motivational speaker Anthony Robbins - if you say to yourself that you require 8 hours of sleep a day, you will just end up needing it. Not because you are tired but only because you allowed yourself to.
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