At First Sight

So, I buggered up my blog.
Template must've expired or something I dunno... either way I've reverted to a 'default' blogspot one.

Yay.

Anyway, I'm not going to decorate this blog with my normal colours and styling, I don't think it really needs it. This doesn't need to be 'glorified', its something that has quite simply changed my life.

One concept.

Who here, if anyone is actually here, believes in love?
Not the love you have for your family or the feeling towards your cat, but love love.
True love.

That feeling you get with that significant other, the butterflies, the cold sweats, the weak knees, stammering speech, that generally uncomfortable feeling that you can't really get enough of.
The one where you look back and grin at fondly.

I don't.

Well, not anymore.
Stung hard? Possibly. I've just had alot of time to question what it all really means. What do people put themselves through, the effort they put in, the time, money, blood, sweat and tears.
All for this feeling of 'love'.

What is love really? All it is, if you break it down, is a reaction of chemicals between two people. A reaction.

How romantic.
When you think about it, it's silly really. I mean, we go out of our way to do things for this feeling, just for another 'hit' of this reaction.
Or do we do this because of the reaction? I'm not going to argue about chickens and eggs, but the pure existence of it in the first place.
Its a concept of the mind, one invented by humans themselves to try and comfort themselves into thinking there are other random people out there that care about you in such a way that you can't conviniently explain.

I thought I had it in bucketloads. I thought it was reciprical. I thought it was 'everlasting'.
Key word is 'thought'.

I also believed in 'love at first sight'. Anyone else believe this?
I don't anymore.
I really thought it was true, I mean, I experienced it. That moment will stay with me forever.

But now that I think about it, it was silly. How does that even occur. There is no logical explanation.

Lets say you believe in love, can it be lost? Does it fade? Does it just... disappear?
And why? How?
These have never really made sense to me. How does a 'reaction' fade? How does it just diminish over time? Does one concept, one 'reaction', need to be so complicated?

How has something complicated, become so fundamental to our lives?
I for one, have revoked this concept. It has confused me so much that I will forever question my future about this. And now I don't believe it.

How can I?