I mean, comparing to previous years, there doesn't really seem to be as much xmas joy floating about and the malls don't even seem that busy.
Or am I just a grouch now?
I've noticed that lately actually. I'm not really the same anymore. I'm more... twitchy. I've lost the will to do things I usually want to do.
I've really started just questioning what I'm doing with my life.
Have you done that? Just questioned your own life?
Is there all a point to this?
I reckon it's less festive because I'm making it less festive. No, the world does not revolve around me but I think with all the shit thats happened to me, the end of the year has just... lost its shine.
I dunno, I have no conclusion. I'm just kinda lost in my own thought.
So yea, abit delayed (1 month) but better late than never I guess.
Here was my pathetic attempt at Movember.
Yes. Mock all you want. It was probably the dirtiest lookin' mo you'll find. It was itchy.And I lost the competition, so there wasn't any need to keep it retarding my face. It was irritating.
EDIT: Well I always tend to have odd dreams before or after posting here.
This time it felt like... I was dreaming of the future. I felt older.
I was at a bar up the road drinking by myself and proceeded to get thoroughly trashed.
I don't know how long I was there, I just remember alot of people coming and going.
Funny thing is, yes, she was there too with her family. Not that I knew it though.
I then got kicked out for fighting some guy next to me for no reason at all just about the same time as she and her family was leaving.
Awkward.
She started making small talk but I wasn't in any state to talk to her nor did I feel like I wanted to. I just wanted to run.
Then she shows me her kid.
I then had this funny, 'out of body' experience in my dream. I saw my face etc and it was some classic shock expression.
I then ran away, well as fast as my inebriated legs could take me.
Oh, then I got hit by a car. Seems about right.
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