Withstanding

So I believe I may have really bad luck.

I have a buggered back that still kinda keeps me up at night and could possibly take months to heal.

But I guess I thought that wasn't enough of a challenge. No.

It's too minor stuff.

So I decided to get a cold as well. A raging one that feels like it's grinding my throat with a belt sander. My head is all light as well, sign of a great cold which gives me that extra disadvantage that I thought I must have.

That should do it right? I'm severely disadvantaged enough that it seems like a struggle just to get out of bed.

But wait there's more.

I thought eating and drinking was too easy so I thought I'd develop some ulcers in my mouth as well.

Haha life is absolutely PEACHY right now.

I'm drained, I don't have the energy for this.

Onto a commercial break. This has been stuck in my head lately.

Let me hold you for the last time

It's the last chance to feel again

But you broke me, now I can't feel anything

When I love you and so untrue

I can't even convince myself

When I'm speaking it's the voice of someone else

Oh, it tears me up

I tried to hold on but it hurts too much

I tried to forgive but it's not enough

To make it all okay

You can't play our broken strings

You can't feel anything

That your heart don't want to feel

I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse

How can I give anymore

When I love you a little less than before?

Oh, what are we doing?

We are turning into dust

Playing house in the ruins of us

Running back through the fire

When there's nothing left to say

It's like chasing the very last train

When it's too late, too late

Oh, it tears me up

I tried to hold on but it hurts too much

I tried to forgive but it's not enough

To make it all okay

You can't play our broken strings

You can't feel anything

That your heart don't want to feel

I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse

How can I give anymore

When I love you a little less than before?

But we're running through the fire

When there's nothing left to say

It's like chasing the very last train

When we both know it's too late, too late

You can't play our broken strings

You can't feel anything

That your heart don't want to feel

I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse

So how can I give anymore

When I love you a little less than before?

Oh, you know that I love you a little less than before

Let me hold you for the last time

It's the last chance to feel again