How I Met Your Mother

So I'm still in constant pain which sucks.
I only really getting about max 4 hours a night sleep then wake up with constant pain.
Insomnias not a problem but when you just can't sleep coz your whole leg and back hurts, it's pretty depressing.

6 - 8 weeks.

I was cleaning out my old phone over the weekend to give to my mum to use, the cool white one that displayed stuff on the front external 'screen'.
I went through the phone and was looking through and deleting all the texts incase I had something important in one.

400ish texts. Thats alot to go through.

Its funny how it reminds you of all the good times and bad times you've had also how we all live in such a technologically dependant world. Everything we do is recorded. Whatever we do is linked to some device, blog, electronic etc.

I was reading some texts I got about a year ago. Do you ever wonder how when people say "I'd never do that to you" or something along those lines, using such a... 'final' word like "never", that they can't actually mean it?
I mean, you say it then, it makes you feel better, but really, isn't it just... delaying the truth?

If you think about it, 'never' is such a long time. Time changes things.

You don't mean it anymore.

It made me quite sad going through the texts about the time when a special someone was leaving.
It brought back alot of memories and kinda makes me wonder now, how did it all change?
Words said so easily I guess just don't really mean much now.

I saw the end of an episode of "How I Met Your Mother" when we were over watching the All Whites.
I dunno why, but it kinda stuck with me.

At the end, Ted (the main char) chases his ex-fiancee to rage at her because she left him for her ex and that shes made the wrong decision and that he was the best thing that happened to her.

"You're just going to regret this. You know that, right? You are going to regret this, and now there is nothing you can do about it, because it's too late. All you can do now is go up there and start your crappy, disappointing life that will never be as happy as the one you could have had with me. Look, I am not here to win you back. I am here because I need to you that you know you made the biggest mistake of your life."

Brilliant speech Ted.

But he didn't say it after seeing her with the new husband all happy like.
He was content to just let it go.

I can kind of relate to that but that's pretty vain of me.
But there are some things its best for your own good to believe.

I wonder if I can let go?