We're Going Down

I've been going acupuncture a few times now and I'm not entirely sure what I think about it.

I mean... there's 2 ways to look at it.
I could be naturally healing, irrespective of the acupuncture, I could be healing at a normal pace.
Or it could be helping me heal, I might not be healing this fast without it.
I dunno.

It's hard to say really and the way I look at it, if you don't believe it, it's not going to work.
At this point in time, if jumping around naked chanting ancient words around a bonfire will work, I'll do it... this is probably the worst pain I've been in.

I don't know if I've actually explained whats wrong with me.
Long story short, I've torn something in a disc. This has caused the insides of the disc to protrude out into my spine and nudge against the nerves in my back.
So essentially the part of the body which controls all the feeling going down to my right foot is affected.
Therefore = movement in back/right leg = stabbing pain.

I'm still taking abit of painkillers and muscle relaxants though... maybe that's helping as well?
But at least I've FINALLY had a night of unbroken sleep.

For about 3 months now, I haven't had one good nights sleep.
If it isn't insomnia, it's nightmares, if it isn't that, I'm just not tired.
It's worse this last week since as part of the insomnia/nightmares throw in a mix of CONSTANT STABBING PAIN while trying to sleep and lets just say... I've seen 3 - 7 am on my clock way too much.
I think I was lucky I didn't move in my sleep last night to irritate my nerves.

I've continued the firecupping stuff too.
I literally have lines of bruises on my back. Three times more than in the previous photo.

I just want to get better...

I continually tell myself, "it'll be ok, be optimistic etcetcetc".
It's hard.

Too many setbacks.

Life sucks.